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Yu Cai
23/08/1989
KHS DHS VJC NUS
Singapore
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Saturday, November 21, 2009
one paper down four more to go!
the paper today drained my brain i think. its like PPDA but... LEVEL UP. haha cant say how relieved i am now that the paper is over. not exactly what i'm veh gd, but the way i really tried to do, i deserve a pat on my shoulder! and i realise i'm getting better at self consoling myself haha.
and i read this email from perry lim! haha he's damn funny he wrote ," ... Please do NOT shade until there is a hole in your MCQ sheet." HAHA i pictured him saying and found it even funnier. we need more lecturers like this haha.
and my mom's watching this korean show VEH NICE! after exams i'm gonna camp in front of the tv HAHAHA. now jus JIAYOU! and dun think so much. life's supposed to be good u see :D
i want to watch new moon after exams!
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Friday, November 20, 2009
i was looking for pharm analysis tutorial ans when i saw this :D we should have gone ubin mug! spend 5 bux to get cap5 WORTH IT MAN. okaeokae back to studying jiayou everyone!
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
rainy days + a cup of hot coffee + some nice food like egg tarts + nice songs from my laptop :D power lah! see me own exams HAHAHA. in less than two wks, i'll be out having fun and enjoying the cold chilly days during year ends.
像孩子依赖著肩膀
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Sunday, November 15, 2009
one more wk to exams. OOHOOH cant wait :D i think i'm sick haha.
i heard that my distant distant until dunno how distant cousin isnt coming to spore for her wedding anymore. not that i care u see, but i jus feel like slapping them when i see how upset my grandpa gets over this issue. my grandpa told my mom that he couldnt get to slp couldnt eat well after he got to know that they are not coming over to singapore to hold the wedding, because he's sad and upset that they can actually make do without this. given that my uncle is supposedly his son as well, it's easy to see why my grandpa will be so upset over this.
yes many ppl may tell him that "its okae if they dun want to come, not that we care anyway", and true, not that we care about that one meal BUT to my grandpa, it means far more than jus a meal. and because the significance behind this meal to him is that great, i cannot make do with the fact that they are not coming over and make my grandpa so upset over it. and it aches me seriously to see my grandpa like this, because i dun think he deserve it at all. and the fact that i respect and love my grandpa makes me even more intolerable of the way those idiots disregard my grandpa (did i mention they didnt even told my grandpa about the marriage) to this extent. something as simple as respect and filial piety, i had learnt and known it well since young, but these people dun seem to grasp all these at all. i wonder whats stuffed up their brains. or perhaps money's the thing thats stuffed up there. thats why they forget the fact that they owe what they have today to my grandpa. IDIOTS. i think they are trying to cut off all ties after getting what they want. IDIOTSSSSSS.
i feel like chopping them up.
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
mindsets of people are jus this hard to change. all the stuffs that lecturers teach in pharm prac about the changing faces of a pharmacist and what not, today i realise they all dun stand.
i was at this meeting today, and the way that these people put down the role of a pharmacist really pissed me off. what sparked off the issue was because they had a misconception that we may make changes to the patient's medication, when the whole main purpose of our visit is actually jus to check on their medications and ensure that they are compliant and exercising safe medication. so they went off to say that pharmacists' sole role is jus to dispense, and that we cannot prescribe medications to patients. that docs are the only ones who can and we, even if we are licensed pharmacists, do not have the knowledge and liberty to do so. that even practicing pharmacists are not equipped to decide if a patient is taking the appropriate medications for his/her conditions because we do not know enough. and that they made pharmacists sound like some dispensing machines who receive orders from doctors and we can only follow and never be in charge even though we are the experts in our own field. what pissed me off is the fact that they totally disregard pharmacy straight and flat in the faces of pharmacy students! like wtf seriously. what made them think they have the right to put us down this much? i dun think the doctors know more about drugs than us do, and i dun think we are any much less capable than them. i had this urge to shoot the people down today, but i had to control my tone because we have to work with them. so that's life. that we pharmacists, despite trying so hard to diversify our roles and sharpen our knowledge and skills, are still being highly disregard by many out there. and especially when i see people looking that down on us, i get really pissed.
what a nice way to bring this harsh fact across. but maybe thats what we need the most. stop telling us the ideal but impractical things in lectures. some people are jus that screwed up.
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
today tracy pointed out something that is so relevant to everyone of us. she said, "ahcai! u have dark circles! we all have boohoohoo" i used to NOT have dark circles! haha in the past whenever the clock hits eleven, my dad will chase me off to bed. but now no more such luxuries. and my dad always love to say that ample rest is impt to last long and not burn out so quickly. and he nvr forgets to add that by staying up late it makes me look MUCH older than i already am. what is this!
and i always wanted to try to make mugging less of a chore and more of a leisure HAHA. because to be good in something, you must really love that something. so i tried but seriously, to love mugging is *SPEECHLESS*. point is i'm still trying still trying still trying............................
so much stuffs to do after exams i cant wait for all these to be over! so that i can have my life back. haha and my sleep and my korean drama and my outings/gatherings/what nots. i need to start saving up now. no more tuition i need a new tuition kid sooooooon. i dun want to spend my hard earned hols without my hard earned money.
i'm dozing off soon.
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Saturday, November 7, 2009
嗯嗯 搭啦 我又 忘了
我应该应该应该应该唱什麼
我应该应该应该应该怎麼作
嗯嗯 搭啦 想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过 彩排过 这个时候
却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
嗯嗯 搭啦 想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说
上一句好像是有关你的形容
下一句好像希望你能答应我
我练习过 彩排过 这个时候
却又说不出口
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过 彩排过 这个时候
却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过 彩排过 这个时候
却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
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Friday, November 6, 2009
i feel stranded. maybe its jus PMS or pre exam blues or simply because i'm insensitized. in such a dog-eat-dog world, i'm struggling to keep my head above the waters but yet i dun see the rationale behind all these. at times i really feel motivated to do well, but at this point in time, nothing is left in me for that. maybe i should slp and ease the anxiety in me. because now it seems bleak. or maybe i'm jus hungry and all i want is a bowl of hot soup or porridge and some care to go along with it. i miss that bowl of yong tau foo. AHHH can someone whip up a nice meal for me pls?
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Monday, November 2, 2009
love me when i least deserved it because that's when i needed it the most.
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Monday, October 26, 2009
u noe when exams come, it's really nil sine labore. GO GO JIAYOU!
but if u're too stressed, u can jus
haha joking! hang on there one more mthhhhhhh (:
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i should stop being like this, if not i'll jus scare everyone away.
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
my tuition kid is having her o'levels soon. which means tuition is ending which means. NO MORE MONEY. i need another tuition kid haha if not my dec hols is gonna be veh sad! anyone has any pls tellllll me.
and i've caught the sleeping bug! keep falling aslp while i'm doing my work. but i've said i'm not gonna touch redbull for my whole lifetime and no one's hm to make nice hot coffee for me. AHHHHHHHHH so i took naps haha:D a lot of naps here and there. but i'm happy! cuz my AAS report is done, my surface tension report is done, my food and health (totally sux) assgnt is done too! coming wk i'm gonna rush out UV report so i can shake leg eat food sing song play mahjong! okaeokae scrap the play mahjong part that is strictly for after exams(: missing those tiles a lil but i miss the people more. i'm in a gd mood now while everyone lamenting about all the deadlines and stuffs I WONDER WHY. unless u tell me herbal tea makes u high cuz i jus drank a bottle haha.
and i've been ranting to some people these days! i need to get the frustration out somehow haha. because i've come to realise that some people are jus seriously being a bitch. so u think u're that perfect/pretty/great/popular? why not take a step back and look at yourself inside out before u shoot others. and if u think u're that great, why not think again and screw off. once is enough, this is it man no more.
haha i always feel good after letting things out(:
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
i'm quite high now.
some people are plain disgusting. enough said.
o yeah lessons are slowly drawing to a close, starting with an end to all the pracs! okaeokae tonnes of reports and tests after that but at least ... NO MORE LABS! NO MORE LAB REPORTS! haha and its an estimate one month to the start of exams. how exciting haha(:
hope everyone is still doing fineeeeeeeee those that i've nvr seen for damn long pls noe i miss each and everyone of u! let's countdown to hols now!
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
read through a few blog posts of other people's blogs. some damn emo, some are overly sweet while some seemed jus full of complaints. after reading tonnes of complaints about how sch sux, how work sux, how everything basically sux like there's no meaning left to life, i'm not going to complain. haha to be frank, i'm jus doing what i need to do everyday, day in day out and as the wks fly by, i see exams coming but MOST IMPORTANTLY i see whats behind that. HOLS!
this may sounds cliche but thinking of positive things will somehow provide some motivation that u tout u'll nvr find. or perhaps year2 life is still not that bad as compared to ppl in other years, so u can say i'm jus talking crap etc. but whether or not u'll spend your day with a smile or with a frown, nobody cares so why make your own life so miserable? even u complain/whine until the sky drops, u still have to complete everything at the end of the day. not saying u cant complain of course(: but after that its gd to tell yourself ranting's done its back to business. and iron it straight out so that u can enjoy the occasional lil moments of peace after that. its your life so u decide how u're gonna live it. and always rmbr there are still ppl who care.
and i must say a big thank you to a lot of ppl. for a lot of things. THANK YOU. i suddenly feel veh calm, peaceful, happy all in one. and i must admit, its a really wonderful feeling(: although i hadnt seen some friends for ages (like jenny!) which makes me kinda missed them ahhhhhhh.
not to forget, happy 15months (:
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Thursday, October 8, 2009
everyone needs an outlet to vent their frustrations. and jus so happen that that outlet is not what u can expect. but den again why expect people to not do certain things when you cannot dont do it as well? everyone is the same at the end of the day.
the irony of life.
and i spent 3hours on the food and health assgnt only to have my com crashed after that so all work gone. nothing to recover even. and i have the stinky pharm analysis lab later. someone kill me pls.
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